There Should Have Been Rain

Apr 9

It didn’t rain the day you went

The sun was there peaking through the windows

As is expected for June and the waiting summer

I was at my lowest

In my darkest self

There should have been thunder and lightning

And god damn rain pelting the windows

But the sun in its bright brutality kept shinning

As we all cried and cried

the sun decided to still fucking shine

I thought of it as cruel

Us under a perfect day

And you not there to feel its warmth

I wanted rain

To soak my clothes through

To hide the tears I felt shame in sharing

Knowing that the universe too felt my sadness

Shared my pain

Instead I got a sunny day

For my heart to break

The Gift