Journal’s: Going Back to School as a Mature Student Part 1
Welcome-you probably found this website through my poetry or maybe one of my blog pieces like this one! Thank you for checking out this post! I want to take you all along in my journey of trying to go back to school. This is part one out of ? Hope anyone going through something similar doesn’t feel so alone in their own process!
Part 1: The Reckoning
In my mind I kept on rethinking on when the exact start of this journey was. But with something like this I think it’s been here the whole time, one way or another! For the sake of this entry we will start July 30,2024, it feels like the culmination of a really tough, shitty kind of year! My supervisor who I worked with for 2 years, set up a coffee with me for this date. In TV talk you know something is happening when you get a coffee with a superior. My contract was coming up in August and it wasn’t going to be renewed. I was going to be without a job…
This came after my start to 2024 was shadowed by moving out, a broken kneecap (swiftly after moving out), living with my parents during recovery, an infection in my kneecap, a big depressive episode and so on. This era of big changes, made me start to see my job in TV in a new light, a ugly new light-I wanted to get out and do something different but I didn’t know what? The bright spot of my 2024 was meeting and falling in love with my partner! She plays a big part in all of this and was such a anchor and supportive force through this massive upheaval.
So when I was sat down to coffee with my supervisor, the news wasn’t too surprising, the company was going through a lot of layoffs and firings and I was the bottom of the group in my department. It was still sad and disappointing and nerve wracking as now I had a month to get a new job, something to at least pay rent and food and I decided next steps. However it cut me loose of the industry I didn’t have to go back-which filled me with optimism and dread. There felt like too much too soon all at once AAAHHH kind of vibe. I felt like a mess, all over the place.
One new retail position later, then came the question of what’s next?
